#4 Get drunk

Today went to some place to have a drink..
although at first we just planning to steamboat..
but at the end we still went to a place like pub..
have a nice talk and drink some beer..

When they trying to trap me to voice out something..
actually I do wish to voice it all out..
all unsatisfied inside my heart I really wish to voice it out..
the feelings that keep all things alone yet cannot solve it really suffer..
that moment I just wish to voice it out to see any better solution to my own relationship or not..
maybe some of their opinion can make my relationship better?
I wonder..

But yet I manage to control..
I just laugh and make all things pass by like that..
this feelings really sucks..

I drink carefully to make myself not to get drunk..
I drink carefully so that no one of them can trap me..
I drink carefully to cover my sadness inside..
I was wondering so shouldn't I drink since I unhappy?
because the main point for people to drink is to relax..
yet I unhappy at all?

I don't know..
really don't know why I still hold it since I not happy..
am I awaiting something?
or really worth for me to hold it?
I wonder..