#3 Worth?

Suppose today is a happy day for everyone of us..
those who single and available can enjoy the day with friends..
those who in a relationship can enjoy this special day with partner..
or enjoying the things that partner specially prepare for them..
everyone smile, laugh, happy, crazy for this special day..
I have the same feelings too..
but no one know how's the lonely feelings inside my heart..

I await you to accompany me in this special period..
you went to celebrate with your friend alone..
I know it's impossible for you to come here to accompany since you said it's very costly for you to visits to me..
but at least a accompany via phone?
I got nothing..

I says : The things you did to me you always feel too much for your limits, but the things you do for your friend you will always feel not enough. It's fair for me?
X replied : I already do my best for you, I treat them not as good as I treated you. Things cannot be compared like this.

I was wondering..
am I really expect and want too much from you?
or you just really want me without appreciate me?

A question that I always ask myself..
Worth it or not?
I really don't know should I hold it or give it all up?
I been struggled form over a year with the same problem..
yet..
nothing change better..